Something besides me is helping me write these articles. An alien presence. Originally I was unable to separate my ego from the alien presence which uses me to communicate its point of view. However, I think it’s far better for my mental health if I am able to separate the two. In Jungian psychology there is the idea of Ego and Self, the two selves within the one self. If the ego confuses itself with The Self, what’s called an inflation results.
At first it’s difficult to imagine two souls residing in the same body. Imagine what an ordinary psychiatrist would think of that! Modern psychiatry goes in direct contradiction to what is good for people. If a god is using you to communicate its message, it’s far healthier to realize that it’s a GOD in there and not yourself. When was the last time any psychiatrist said anything like that, though?
The reason psychiatrists can’t see reality is that they have no notion of higher powers. They think that what a person does is entirely the result of a single personality trapped in a physical body. But how could they miss something so fundamental to understanding human nature?
Any at rate, the stronger the god within me is, the more I must let go of my simple self (my ego) and allow the greater Self to express itself in the gloriously archaic language gods often use. There is a mysterious power to other languages, even older versions of the English language. But to speak as a god in today’s world would appear insane on the one hand and foolish on the other. Of course, the little ego wants nothing of the kind. But the stronger the god, the more critical it is for the two personalities to form a good relationship. This is the secret to mental health, in the case of the person who speaks for a god.
As far as the nature of this relationship, it can be spoken of in many ways. The god is an entirely separate soul within the person. The person, therefore, is used by the god. Does the person carry the god within himself, or does the god carry the person? My experience is as if I’m a radio receiver, but that I can’t turn myself off until the god is finished speaking. As an ego I feel used. Since the god doesn’t exist in physical space, I can’t claim to carry the god within me. On the other hand, many people’s only exposure to the god who uses me is through me. Therefore, it’s easy to assume it’s inside of me. The question is, if I believe the god is inside of me, what does that do to my mental health?
It depends on what kind of god it is. If it ever grows larger than the size of my body, then it’s wrong to believe I carry it in me. If it’s a tiny little god, then I guess there’s no harm in thinking it’s squirming around inside of me. How powerful are tiny little gods, though? Gods are, perhaps by definition, spirits bigger than people.
It’s surprisingly hard to instill into one’s brain the notion that one is simply the mouthpiece FOR the deity and not the deity itself. The reason it’s hard to embrace this notion is essentially the weakness and nakedness of the human life itself. As a person I have insecurities, some obvious and others less so. Many of them I’m only aware of through observing my behaviors, after the fact, whereupon they become a source of shame and embarrassment.
The urge to BE the deity, and not merely the person channeling the diety, is the urge to escape the life of the person with insecurities. The more insecurities you have, the stronger will be the urge to escape them, and I live the life of someone for whom this is not a trivial temptation! It seems to me to be the obvious way of dealing with my condition to adhere to the notion that there are indeed two different souls operating within me, one my little ego, whom I’m responsible for, and the other a God whom I must essentially submit to.
To believe what psychiatry believes, that I am only one entity and must act like it, is nothing but misery and suffering. (The end result is often the total supression of the deity through medications, which are themselves often so toxic as to damage people’s physical health.)
I think it takes a strong person to separate out the two personalities. The weaker person will need everything they can get just to survive as an ego. This can cause problems for the person doing the honest work of separating the personalities, because all the scraps of the divine process in the weaker person will go toward bolstering the weaker person’s ego. It’s pure survival mode in that case, and no help whatsoever to the process of separation and distinction, which is also very hard.
I might as well point out now that psychiatry could perhaps be blamed for making no distinction between weak and strong people. From that perspective, you might say that our whole culture fails to make that distinction. To show you what I mean, take the presidential race as an example. At some point in history, I suppose someone running for president would be expected to make intelligent arguments in order to garner the votes necessary to win the race. But the problem is with the fact that ALL citizens have a vote, not just the highly intelligent ones. As a result, the presidential race is little more than saying and doing whatever it takes to get ORDINARY people to vote for you. There’s no point in honest, high-level discussions in the race anymore, because the risk of saying something which might alienate the dumb people is so great that it’s probably better to have no discussions at all.
Therefore it is a major weakness and a difficult problem that we no longer have a morally (or legally) sanctioned way of distinguishing smart people from dumb people. Certainly we’re still a long way from making any changes in politics, for fear of the possibility of tyranny, should any group of people lose their right to vote for any reason. But in the realm of mental health it would be a profoundly useful distinction to start making. The reason is, that intelligent people with mental health problems can go through a process by which they eventually become mental health experts themselves, whereas dumb people, in my experience, cannot and should not do this. Instead, EVERYBODY gets treated as if they are profoundly stupid, and, generally speaking, only the stupid people are helped. But it’s even worse, because the inherent betrayal of humanity which accompanies treating everyone as if they’re idiots grates at the mental health of the practioners themselves, which results either in their own mental illness, or in supression of their natural openness and generosity, which is essential in their profession.
Now I need to address the ambiguity I’ve created regarding the difference between strong people and smart people, and between weak people and stupid people, if any. The danger in evaluating how smart a person is comes with the failure to realize just how many TYPES of intelligence there are, and that a person can have a high or low intelligence each type without its necessarily affecting the level of the other types. Nonetheless, it is my opinion that all the types added together can give you the person’s total intelligence.
How do you estimte people’s intelligence? It is a task which must be approached with humility, since your own consciousness may be overlooking something. For this reason, I advise reserving a specific category for the “unknown” factor, which accounts for an unknown percentage of total intelligence. Life forces you to act. The “unknown” factor is simply a way of acknowledging that your system is not perfect and that you will make mistakes.
Besides intelligence, what other factors contribute toward a person’s being strong instead of weak? I’m not sure exactly. Another important factor is appearance and bodily fortitude, which are often matched. Beyond this, there is upbringing, which varies so widely that I simply don’t know how to integrate it into my system. Therefore, my idea of a strong person is based mainly on intelligence, somewhat on physical appearance, and somewhat on background and upbringing. Someone who has been particularly abused will spend a long time recovering from it, which could slow down what otherwise might be his natural “strength”. Intelligence, however, is my main criterion.
Perhaps no society will ever reliably be able to distinguish strong people from weak ones, because there is too much at stake and no one wants to be weak. However, it would make healing from mental illnesses easier — possible, sometimes, whereas before impossible. The strong person’s journey is different from the weak one’s. Why is no distinction made? Does our culture really have that little faith in people?